Feeling better about things now...although I'll always miss Wednesday, of course...
I have a day off work today and was taking advantage of it by doing some felting (see my blog for a few details on what I made): at http://knittyknatty.blogspot.com/
My cat Wednesday died today. I am so sad. When i got home from work I checked my messages and a lady two streets over had left me one saying she found my kitty in the road. I went to pick up her body and dug a hole in the front yard beside the lilac tree I planted this spring and buried her. I can't deal. I miss her so much already. I'm so lonely without her; the apartment is so quiet. I emptied her litter box and put her scratching post in storage. I haven't been able to put away her food and water bowls yet. I couldn't even stay in my apartment. I feel so guilty because she had followed me to work this morning but I didn't have time to bring her back in. I would have been late for work. Seems like a trivial thing now, and of course it is compared to the loss of her.
I'm only working part-time now. But I'm registered full-time for classes next year. I don't know what I'm going to do without her. She was everything to me. She meant so much to me. It seems like every time a relative dies, this time my grandfather, my pet dies soon after.
Art / Music Therapist
Special Effects Technician
Licensed Practical Nurse
Child and Youth Worker
Director of Photography
Special Education Teacher
Cartoonist / Comic Illustrator
Marriage and Family Therapist
Mental Health Nurse
Public Health Nurse
Video Game Developer
(i had to sneak that last one in)
I talked to Honey Bee earlier and Dominic, the Montreal coach, said I'd make a good jammer!
At roller derby practise last night, we had a coach from Montreal drilling us. At the end, we did some scrimmage. I was jammer for two plays, lead jammer for one. A girl on the other team slammed me into the boards. And am I feeling it today. My skates busted again but Honey Bee is getting them repaired at the cobbler's. I need to get some good skates.
Getting to Know You Meme
1. Can you cook? Yes. My first job was at the Green Door vegetarian restaurant, and I am grateful to Poppy Weaver for taking me under her wing and teaching me how to cook.
2. What was your dream growing up? I wanted to be a ballerina. Then, I discovered feminism.
3. What talent do you wish you had? Musical talent.
4. Favorite place? That would have to be by the ocean, Atlantic or Pacific.
5. Favorite vegetable? Parsnip.
6. What was the last book you read? "Psychology", by David Myers.
7. What zodiac sign are you? Leo.
8. Any tattoos and/or piercings? I used to have a lip piercing; now I have a scar.
9. Worst habit? Picking at my psoriasis.
10. Do we know each other outside of lj? No.
11. What is your favorite sport? Bicycling.
12. Negative or optimistic attitude? Optimistic.
13. What would you do if you were stuck in an elevator with me? Practise my deep breathing.
14. Worst thing to ever happen to you? When my Dad kicked me out of the house.
15. Tell me one weird fact about you: I used to be a technophobe.
16. Do you have any pets? Yes, Wednesday, my kitten.
17. Do you know how to do the macerana? Wish I didn't.
18. What time is it where you are now? 8:01 pm.
19. Do you think clowns are cute or scary? Scary.
20. If you could change one thing about how you look, what would it be? Straighter teeth.
21. Would you be my crime partner or my conscience? Conscience (don't do it).
22. What color eyes do you have? Brown.
23. Ever been arrested? Yes, for shoplifting, traffic violations as a bike messenger, and resisting arrest (don't hold it against me, I'm all reformed).
24. If you won $10,000 dollars today, what would you do with it? Buy a house and fund my schooling.
25. What kind of bubble gum do you prefer to chew? I hate gum.
26. What's your favorite bar to hang at? I don't drink.
27. Do you believe in ghosts? Yes.
28. Favorite thing to do in your spare time? Knit.
29. Do you swear a lot? Lately, yes; it's the stress.
30. Biggest pet peeve? When people don't move over on the sidewalk to let you pass.
31. In one word, how would you describe yourself? Ambitious.
32. Will you repost this so I can fill it out and do the same for you?
I didn't mention that I am getting a grant in January! This really commits me to going full-time, which I am really nervous about. I worry that I won't be able to do it, and if I drop a class, does that affect my grant and OSAP? Aargh, plus, a lot of people have been discouraging me from going full-time, they don't think I can handle it. I really need to be more surrounded by people who believe in me, that I can do it. The ideal for me would be to work full-time as well, but I think I'm going to do one thing at a time, give myself some time to adjust to a full schedule and then see what happens. And I just cannot work in the food/service industry any more, and that's where my experience is. Crappy, I know, but what can you do. I'd like to get some experience in a more professional environment, like an office. I went to a summer job workshop by Career services, got my resume critiqued, some people tell me it's who you know, but I haven't had the opportunity to meet that many people. And then, it may seem like a minor issue but I don't have professional-looking clothes to wear. I don't even have tights that have no hole in them. I guess I could wear pants but I have like one pair of dress pants and they need hemming. I shop at St. Vincent de Paul, usually. Maybe I just wasn't thinking. It's hard to predict where you are going to be and how you need to be dressed for it.